Next week is my 5 year anniversary of getting T. And the first year or so was just as terrible as it is for most people - hardly any sleep, depression etc etc.
But now it is just as loud as it was then but I rarely hear it. Maybe about 11 am while driving I may suddenly hear it and think oh its still there and forget about it two minutes later. Possibly in the early evening in a crowded mall I might suddenly hear it and think What a pain, but then shortly nothing.
And maybe in a quiet period watching tv at night it may suddenly become noticeable and then the story takes me away from it.
So for the vast majority of the day I just dont hear it even though its there alright, habituation to the highest degree.
How did this come about - I did a short TRT session which let me understand what it was but did not go for the headphones. Just convinced myself that it was not going to hurt me, just like the refrigerator sound and ignored it.
Not very earth shattering but acceptance can be a powerful thing.
But now it is just as loud as it was then but I rarely hear it. Maybe about 11 am while driving I may suddenly hear it and think oh its still there and forget about it two minutes later. Possibly in the early evening in a crowded mall I might suddenly hear it and think What a pain, but then shortly nothing.
And maybe in a quiet period watching tv at night it may suddenly become noticeable and then the story takes me away from it.
So for the vast majority of the day I just dont hear it even though its there alright, habituation to the highest degree.
How did this come about - I did a short TRT session which let me understand what it was but did not go for the headphones. Just convinced myself that it was not going to hurt me, just like the refrigerator sound and ignored it.
Not very earth shattering but acceptance can be a powerful thing.
