Hello all! I hope some of you remember me! I came here 3 years ago in desperate need of help, of anyone who would listen to me as I felt my life was over. I had gotten tinnitus because of loud music during a show and I had regret it for so long. I was in much emotional and mental pain, and even physical pain in the beginning, dealing with hyperacusis. I was at a loss and I was only 20 years old at the time. Felt like I wouldn't be able to do anything with my life, thought I would have to give up school, give up everything. I am sure a lot of you feel that way right now, and I want you to know you are not alone in those feelings. I, too, felt this way.
However, with much support from the wonderful people in this forum and other forums I was on, and even some internal meditation, I overcame my fears of tinnitus and while I still have T, it does not define me nor does it control me. I still hear it, but it does not threaten me anymore. When I first got tinnitus, I was a student at a community college just trying to find my way through life. Now, I am a student attending a university. I am studying to take the GRE in hopes of applying for graduate schools soon to pursue my Masters in Social Psychology. I have applied for a research assistant position with a professor/researcher who works at my school and focuses on Culture and Emotion.
If anyone would have told me that three years later, I would be working my way towards my goals I would have never believed them. Having tinnitus is a true and real burden. It isn't just something mental that if you just stop thinking about, you get over. It is a very REAL condition and it causes real suffering. I want all people here to know they can contact me for any questions or any advice they may need. I understand what it feels like to be lost and scared and unsure of your future. Please know you're not alone. I am happy to lend an ear to anyone. Thanks to everyone here who helped me in my time of need. Your words and kindness have never been forgotten and never will be. Bless you all.